Did not want to go!

It has been a long time since I posted a diary about my experiences. The problem is that I did not have many experiences last year, and I think the problem is that I don´t have time to think because of work. But anyhow I have been working with thoughts about life and stuff and some of the answers that I get are really rational and make sense. I have had two experiences this year and here is the first one, I will post the second one later.

I was asleep and noticed that I was getting an OBE, it got me excited so I tried to focus on the waves of electrical surge throughout my body. As I popped out of the body, I became aware of my environment, then the next thing I was lucid dreaming. I noticed that I was lucid dreaming so I tried to become more aware what I was doing, next thing I remember I was flying through the skies over some valley which had some sea water. I did not have a clue where I was. I became scared and started to fall, as I tried to move to a small hill I heard sound of wolves howling and I noticed that they where following me. I walked up the small hill and saw a lion which followed me, I became more scared and moved further up the hill, but the lion was still following me. I became to think about why I should be scared because I was in the OBE, so I turned back and faced the lion, as I moved closer to the lion I noticed that it was also scared. I moved a little bit closer to the lion so I could touch his fur, it was growling. I looked into it´s eyes and saw my self. This was only a test for my self to face my fears but not run away from them. After that I had fallen into the water I became aware that I was in a lucid dream.

I felt my body in bed and I knew that it was time to go back, but I did not want to go back. I wanted to stay longer. I thought "NO I DON´T WANT TO GO BACK" as this thought had entered my mind it was like a great force had pushed me from my body. I was in my room, it was dark and I tried to see. I was beginning to feel uneasy because I have forced my self from the body. It became more difficult to move, then I thought maybe I should go back and rest. With an instance I was back in my body. I opened my eyes and saw a dark man moving side of my bed. I knew that this dark man is the same man that I saw when I was little. I became a little bit scared, but very few seconds had passed and I had fallen asleep.

Next OBE I had was extreme, I was so aware of everything. Check out my next blog post.

Dark waters

I had a dream but it somewhat as real dream as it could be. I was at a party at my work but the surroundings was in liquid state. The environment felt strange, I had the feeling that I was trying to find my child that I had never known. I felt the feelings of the child, it had never been loved and it was alone in the world. I did not see the child but I wanted to search for it, I met some people there but I did not see any faces but I felt who it was, one of the man was my grandfather and suddenly I saw him on the see rowing. He was saying something about the ocean  that it will be in full force like he was warning me as he was saying it he vanished into the darkness into the night. Suddenly the ocean was going crazy but there where no wind. As I was searching for the child I fell of the boat.  I tried to catch my breath but it was not working, I heard a voice in my head but it was more like my own, "now you are in trouble". As I was sinking into the ocean I stopped in the bottom and saw other people there dead. I started to think of the child I never knew, then I knew that the child had gone to the other side. I started to float above the ocean and then over some forest I saw trees then I felt unconditional love for everything. I was sad that I was not able to give more love to everything. As I was feeling the love I felt everything connected, I felt the roots of the plants alive, like a light coming from the base of the roots and growing upward and it was extreme love.

I woke up refreshed.

Isabell

Had this strange dream last night, it was not an obe but just a dream but it felt like I´ve been in this situation before. I was walking with my friend to the golf course but we where not going to play golf.  It was night and we where just going for a late night walk. My friends house was just around the corner and behind the house was just field of grass and ponds. As we walked we saw something in the sky, as we looked closely we saw a glowing light coming from the sky and it was all kinds of colors but one color stood out of the other ones and was white.  It was beautiful to look at and I did not know what it was, I asked my friend if he knew what it was and he said "Yes, they come sometimes".  I looked at him wondered and thought what is he thinking about. I tried to check if I had my phone to take pictures but I did not have my phone so I asked my friend to take a video on his phone and he did. As my friend was starting to record the light came closer and my friend became scared and ran away and had hidden behind a car and was still recording. I just watched the light thinking what it could be.  Suddenly as the light came so close I saw what the light was and it was some kind of UFO, I started to watch myself in third person as I was watching it from the UFO. I was numb and I could not move and blacked out. I woke up in a dark room and saw someone there around me, I looked in the dark corner and saw a being watching me. As I approached the being it became scared of me and backed from me.  I thought maybe I should not scare it and turned around and saw other beings who where friendly but they did not look human, they where small.  I reached out with my hand and one of the beings touched me, I felt it smile, relieved to see someone, maybe it thought it could save it from this agony in this dark place. I knew that I had no idea where I was or what I was going to do. I turned around again and saw this dark being in the corner, I tried to approach it again and then I saw it. (Click more to read more)

REM me a light

Took a nap today, noticed that my body was asleep, so I tried to do some Obe. When I started to feel the electrick tingling pressure in my body. It was dark and I could not see anything so I tried to find out how I could manually open my eyes, I felt as my physical eyes where open, but just small opening. As I tried to see I saw light sparkling around me, so I thought maybee this could be somekind of REM sleep as my eyes are moving automatically and my eyelids have small opening then the light around me where coming through so my brain is probably decoding it as somekind of light sparkles. But it did not seem as my brain trying to figure out what was going on but rather it was like I was in some kind of a sparkly place. I lost interest in this so I just wanted to fly, I popped out of my body with out hardly trying. I flew threw the window and up in the air. Ahhh, it felt so nice to fly into the ski, but it seemed like the environment was not as it should be, I tried to focus on what was wrong and then I noticed that it was dark outside, but I knew that it was not as dark outside as I was seeing. I told myself to try to figure out how to see better and suddenly as I thought about it everything got more clear and light became more. I was drifting into sleep and I feelt loosing control, suddenly I woke up in the air moving toward some house on a small island, it did not feel like a dream and it did not feel like a obe experience, but rather somewhere in between. Maybe this was a lucid dream because I felt having contol. I went into the house and sat down at a table in front of a woman. Everyone was watching me and talking to each other wispering and I could net hear what they where saying. This was a dull place so I asked the woman if she wanted to get iut of this place, she nodded and we whent outside. It started to rain and it was a lot of rain. Few meters away was somekind of house that was under construction, we ran to the building and went iside. There was an elevator there and it did not work, I opened it to see what was on the other side and heard some noices as someone was there so I closed the door. Next to the elevator there where stairs that we walked up. As we came to the second floor there where a receptionist, we tried to sneek past here and opened another door. Behid that door where other people who where doing some yoga or something like that. I asked them to go away because I was the dreamer and I controlled the dreem. They went away bug someone stayed inside. I asked him forcefully to go and he said no and said that I was not the only one in this place. I knew that I did not hve control over him as I did the others. It was like that he was in my dream or dreaming  me. He said I will show you something and suddenly I was ontop of a big waterfall. I woke up and thiught that this was something interesting to write. 

The bubble and the mountain

The past few weeks have been crazy in work and home, because of Christmas and new year, but I did get an OBE experience this week that was amazing.

It started one night I was sleeping and woke up in a dream and I noticed that I was dreaming so I knew that I could use this opportunity to get some OBE experience, as I thought about this I felt my body getting really heavy like it was crushing the bed then suddenly I popped out, but I was not anywhere near my bed but I was on top of a mountain.  I felt like there was some kind of bubble around me but I could not see it. I floated around the mountain wondering what the heck I was doing there. It was dark but not that dark that I could not see, the moon was shining on the mountain so there was some light. As I was thinking about what I was doing there at the mountain I felt like I was two persons talking to each other, one person was saying that I should go to the houses at the end of the mountain and try to get in and do something like a prank, but the other person was saying that it was not rational do to that and was asking the other person why I should go there to do some pranks. But I felt that I had just have to watch myself talking to myself and let something happen with this experience, so I floated automatically to one of the houses and I saw that there where other beings(souls) there in the houses trying to connect with the persons inside, at one moment I was inside one house and I started to try to push things and throw things around, but what ever I did nothing happened. I lost interest in this experience because there was nothing to gain from it so I woke up in my bed.

Merry christmas and a happy new year

So the year has started chapter 2013 has begun, hope that this year will be good for me as for you. I will try to post more experience stories to my blog so you can enjoy reading it as for me to create it.

Wish you all the best with peace, joy and love.

Abstract of life

I have been thinking past months on how life works and how one´s life path is ? One night I woke up and had an OBE as I realized that I was having an OBE I really did not have any control what was happening. I went to a dark place and saw these crystals moving in different shapes, sizes and colors popping all around me and and fading out, some of the sides of the crystals where shaking and some pearcing outward some inward, while moving they made a trail behind it. It did not make any sense why I saw these crystals and then it hit me like someone was putting the information in my head. As I got this information I was in a circle tunnel  with out any end. The sides of the tunnel was crystal like texture with different colors, shaking sides and moving. I thought this is like a rock candy but inward and the edges are all in triangles.